Listen here. Human kindness can't be bought for pennies or silver. Kindness is kindness. Pennies and silver are pennies and silver. Can't mix the wheat with the chaff.
The best way to predict the future is to invent it.
Generally speaking, envy, resentment, and self-pity are disastrous modes of thoughts.Self-pity gets fairly close to paranoia, and paranoia is one of the very hardest things to reverse.