Looking back at the 21-year-old that I was at graduation, is a slightly uncomfortable experience for the 42-year-old that she has become. Half my lifetime ago, I was striking an uneasy balance between the ambition I had for myself, and what those closest to me expected of me.

我不知道我想要什么。我反复无常、不坚定、被动；我喜欢不确定、无边界，以及持续的不确定性。

思维和行为在生命有机体中是不可分割的。