我知道我自己打得像坨屎一样，但你们不知道我为了让自己打得不那么像坨屎，付出了多少努力。
I know I played like crap, but you don't know me in order to let oneself have less like shit, how much effort.
The photograph is literally an emanation of the referent. From a real body, which was there, proceed radiations which ultimately touch me, who am here.
别让恐惧决定你的未来。