I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity.

Not necessarily your mother, or indeed mine, but, as it were, the ideal mother, somebody who doesn't care about your achievements. Unfortunately, most people are not our mothers. Most people make a strict correlation between how much time, and if you like, love -- not romantic love, though that may be something -- but love in general, respect --they are willing to accord us, that will be strictly defined by our position in the social hierarchy.

每起谋杀都有故事，每个杀手都有理由。

"In the act of writing, we confront our deepest fears and desires."