The novel is not the author's confession; it is an investigation of human life in the trap the world has become.
那是一个金发女郎。一个能让主教在彩色玻璃窗上踢出一个洞的金发女郎。
Take long walks in stormy weather or through deep snows in the fields and woods, if you would keep your spirits up. Deal with brute nature. Be cold and hungry and weary.
"Memory is a strange thing. It doesn't work as I thought it did. We are so foolishly constructed that we go through life arm in arm with our earliest memories, thinking they are the most recent."