I don't know. Sometimes when I feel about to cry, it often evolves into an impulse to almost laugh. That must have been how I really felt at the time, because I laughed, almost giggled.
我不知道。有时候当我感觉快哭出来的时候，往往会演变成一种几乎想笑的冲动。那一定是我当时的真实感受，因为我笑了，几乎咯咯咯地笑了。
I cannot and do not live in the world of discretion, not as a writer, anyway. I would prefer to, I assure you—it would make life easier. But discretion is, unfortunately, not for novelists.
